I feel like throughout my life, I have constantly been counting down. I would count down the days until school starts, until I would go to Haiti, until my wedding. I would count down the time until I have to go to work, until work is over, until I could get away from Judson, etc. I spend my days wishing the time away until something I'm looking forward to comes.
I hate that I do this.
It's an awful habit that I need to change. And I'm trying to change it. I need to learn how to be content in the present and appreciate the obligations in my life. There are some awesome things that are going to happen this month:
I'm going to celebrate my first anniversary on the 7th (I can't believe it's already been one year!)
I am going to be an auntie for the first time (any day now!)
I have some projects that I really want to do
Frank and I are going to UG at the end of the month (I'll meet my in-laws for the first time and see Kels!)
As exciting as these things are, I'm not going to wish my days away in order for these events to come sooner. I hate the phrase, "I can't wait until..." I know that it's just a phrase for people to express how excited they are about something. But for me, it has such a different meaning. Yes, I can. I can wait until August 28th when we go to UG. And really, I have no other choice but to wait. The way I see it, I have two options.
Option One: I can either wish my days away and be depressed/grumpy that the exciting event hasn't come yet. And from that, I will grow to be resentful of my life and bitterness will ensue.
Option Two: Or I can appreciate the waiting period and the obligations that come with normal days and I can learn to really love and appreciate my life. I mean, really, it's the everyday life that makes these other events so fun and meaningful.
Happy August, everyone! And here's to being present this month.